The image of the page is blurry, context is unclear, and whether it was a real life event in two days, or a dream in two parts - I was writing both kinds down equally vividly - I asked Miljka one day, she said she'd think about it, she isn't quite sure, and the next day it was a no. Either way, the outcome was the same. Or, possibly, I did it in the dream first, and the real life came true like a dream. The last part was that I had only three classes that day, for some reason, and had to hurry home - something came up to use the unexpected free time - so I dropped by her class and quickly asked whether it was a yes or no, and it was a no, okay, ćao.
On 31. of march, Lazar, Jablan and I were completely equipped (the 16mm Bolex wind-up camera, the reflectors, the Quartz 5 from the club, exposure meter, a tote) and went to tobacco factory, and then in lingerie, to shoot the first meters of the big documentary. Some other day they went with Bukac to the railway vehicles factory (made wagons, refurbished locomotives) and radiators. The retired lottery seller moved out of the club. It's all ours now. Developing on sunday.
As for music, "Sweet" appeared, the reincarnation of Ohio Express and the bubble gum music, now it's candy and just as stupid. The 202 forces the "Soulful dynamics" which is only stupid, and things like "gin-gan-goo-gan". May Ray Coniff fuck them all.
On 3rd, Tejka came as usual. We're big friends again, and nothing more, but for most of the world we may look like a couple, which we take as a joke, and make more jokes on top of that. My parents sometimes joined that kind of talk. Then she made three sentences in a row, each shaped in "had someone told me four months ago that today I will [variable part here], I'd refuse to believe". The variable parts, in this order:
- will so seriously mock Sarča
- will get into such a heavy quarrel with her mom
- will be in love with me
Now there, she said it, but in the line of total mockery over exactly that subject, all afternoon. Now go for it and get screwed up, or don't and get screwed up. So mockery stays, all the way. Nothing is serious. Dropped by her place then, where she was supposed to try a new skirt (not in front of me, despite of us being relatives, it's all in the family), then she made a prank phone call ("so where do we deliver this elephant?") to a guy from fourth grade (that's about the time when all three started going out above 2nd grade), who was already in Dragana's inner circle now.
Ninth, theatre, "Selo Sakule, a u Banatu", the long winded and famous show about us here, the peasants, the Lala, the slow talking long joking, seemingly stupid flatlanders. Good company. I started buzzing around Ksenija and Žuca, for the first time. The trouble is that they're always together and, despite completely different looks, indistinguishable at this time. We were so close that I almost got my hands on one of them, but couldn't decide which, so nothing. Instead, there I noticed that Višnja is also very nice, and lives along my path to downtown, one block on the side. Anyone would like a girl like that.
There was some misunderstanding with Miljka, because Ž. reappeared, out of the blue, and then there was a complicated relationship between all of us, along with Milica playing moral control, so tomorrow she tried to clear with me who said what, who meant what (with the tax stamp present again). I could only guess what happened with Ž. (did HE ask?), so I started distancing myself with "I thought you already forgot all about that", "I won't meddle, I'm completely out of it", "it's all yours, do as you feel" etc etc.
Saw V. somewhere, she's more and more beautiful every week.
The tape from tobacco and lingerie was a disaster, the inverter fixer was dead, all wasted. The one from Radijator looks great, too bad it's not color, the flames would be awesome.
Eleventh, planning at DC-99 - tomorrow, Morava, Jablan and I hit the brewery, and on thursday we begin shooting the "progressive" (aka "primitive" as someone slipped once). The brewery was off for the day, Jablan's spaček broke. We'll conquer the brewery the next day. (this was now always in the morning, our gimnazija was in the afternoon shift this semester)
There should be a scene in the film with a girl running through fields. I suggested to V. that she do that, but... she's got a boyfriend. Theoretically possible that Pop is the guy - he's chums with her brother, whom I've seen about twice altogether.
In the afternoon, my folks visited Tejka's. All regular, except Ivka kept complaining of this new generation, not even close to legendary us. Um, yeah, didn't sound like that while we were there...
Nineteenth, lamenting on not seeing the good performances, like "Hamlet in the basement" in Atelje 212 (saw it on TV the following year), movie "Strawberry statement" (in theatre, same year). All those films from FEST (first one ever was this january) took their time coming into distribution.
Answered on history today, Bysanthium. Um, a dot in the lower end. These were the provisional marks, top left was an ace, right a 2, bottom right 3, bottom left 4, center 5. Then he'd just write them in digits when he was sure. That was his system, until you get it you never know what you got, so nobody's satisfied and you get to do your best all the time. So it'sa 4 this time, I saw while leaving the blackboard. Looked like a 2 first, but it was the pen hovering above someone else's square. Nope, heard it later, it was a three, someone else took a better peek for me.
Feeling down most of the month. But then, as that Bosnian on the horse said about the rain: "each has stopped, so will this too".
On 22nd, Dragana and Duca went out to town when a professor didn't show up for class. Unfortunately, the principal himself came to substitute, so they invented that the first wasn't feeling well and the other one took her home. Then she phoned her sister, older enough, a doctor in the factory (where dad worked), to write her an excuse. Better to swindle like that than to get a reprimand for skipping class. Sounds easy, but she got shit scared.
Next day, we finally started shooting the "Progressive".